Suppression

Have you ever felt something that shouldn't be felt? Or in a different light, have you ever destroyed something in your mind and heart because it shouldn't be consuming you in any way?

I am left uncertain and certain at the same time. I can not gauge myself anymore.

They say I suppressed it and continuously suppressing it. Am I?

Nice Meeting You

At first it wasn't something special. Just an ordinary preboarding transition of a new employee. Just the usual New Employee Orientation on a Thursday night. Just a typical day with new nurses.


First team building. First small conversation. First interaction. From the usual to the firsts.


It was unexpected. It was even unplanned. First text. Just a reminder for the newbies. And it went on.


I chose not to mind it. I even hesitated to absorb everything. In the end, I was moved to dissect every piece of it. Still, I can not completely understand nor consume the whole story, the whole experience.


First teardrop because of fear. Second teardrop because of uncertainty. Third teardrop caused by extre emotional struggle.


I am in awe. I am still surprised. I wonder what's yet to come.

Canterbury Tales

It may be an unusual scenario but it is a possible set-up.

I am moved. I have been moved.

I have tried to suppress it. I have tried to just let it take its natural course.

I am taking it as an inspiration. 

I have been thinking about things. 

You have let me understand each side of the coin. 

I may and may not have absorbed it. But I am certain my senses are stimulated.

I gave you my right atrium. Asking for my left is something special.

I can say, you own my left as well.

Yowe priketh my corage anon.